You know when someone asks you what’s been going on, and you really don’t have any news? That idea that no news is good news… that’s where I’m at and I honestly don’t have much to say here, or so it feels every time I sit down to write. I am also very paranoid about saying things are good, which I had to have mentioned before. I have tried to get used to the idea that life is unpredictable.
Tomorrow could bring a steaming pile of horrible shit to deal with (oh hey, coronavirus, stock market tumbling, etc.), but the key is appreciating the moments where everything is even and just… fine. I personally have no issue with shit being calm. Please continue.
Yesterday was my 39th birthday, and it feels surreal. The last year of my thirties, wow. I distinctly remember being 29 and counting down the months in a panic to 30… lol. I am kinda sorta embracing my continuing old age as a blessing now, and less freaking over the impending wrinkles and whatnot. I feel…lucky. I understand that 39 is not old in the realm of things, but it’s longer than some people get… and it still feels like I was a teenager yesterday. I’m not sure I will ever feel like a real adult. Except for those random sharp pains that seem to have come out of nowhere – those paint a pretty clear picture.
I am pretty proud of myself, because I am successfully keeping my promises to myself on a few of my goals. I am either very all or nothing when it comes to things like exercise and my health, and I’m pretty souped to report that I’m very much ON. Granted I have a ways to go, but I am feeling motivated by my progress so far. I am still sucking at reading my books, though. I feel a lot of pressure from the broad selection on Netflix (and Hulu, and Amazon Prime, and Apple TV, and Disney+…ugh) that competes for my time.
In summary, I don’t have a lot to report on, other than I’m feeling extremely blessed and grateful for all the stuff going well/right… annoying, right?
I hope to be back with more annoying news soon. I hope the new year is treating you just as well.